I’ve been meaning to write a second entry here for quite some time, but lately I’ve kind of been living life on autopilot here in the city (against the wishes of my advisor from the previous entry). I figured it would be a bit contradictory to post a messy existential bit on a blog that is supposed to document the life of someone who tries to see the good that is mixed into the daily grind. But even the most obedient person would get sick of doing the same thing from week to week for almost 16 years, right? I really do try not to stress out about things that don’t matter, but with commencement speeding toward me without a job lined up to support the weight of my next step, a few adverse reactions to sudden movements should be expected.
The only thing that serves as consolation is that nothing last forever. Graduation will be here before I know it, ending the slew of classes, papers, exams and pondering the spelling of the word “colonel”. See what I did there, Jeff? I will eventually find employment and become a real grown up. Yikes! Maybe the next time I find myself freaking out, I’ll envision a time in the future when I have a new routine. And a kitchen. I’ll come home and pour myself a glass of wine, put on some DMB (or Justin Bieber. Let’s be real here) and whip up something delicious to eat. Then I’ll plan for the next day’s meeting and curl up with a good book. Ahh, the possibilities...
Another consolation – spring is coming. A bit of renewal (and some fun new clothes) always does the soul some good.
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